My prescription to myself:
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Health issues are a strenuous part of life for me, and many others with autism. I am currently dealing with more health issues than I can handle with my current schedule. It is not easy for me understand what is happening with my body, nor is it easy to take the proper time to heal and recover.
Regardless of how this upsets many of my predictable and favored routines, I have come to the conclusion that I need to take a break from blogging, among other things, for a few weeks (I hope that is all), due to needing more healing and time than I am currently giving myself.
It takes my brain so much longer to process and adapt to anything different or new, that I constantly feel "behind" in life.
Transitions are one of the most difficult, demanding, and laborious things in this world for me.
I hope the transition to come back to my blog is as smooth as it can be.
April 11th, 2013, Updated to say:
I am feeling much better, but I am still not ready to come back to blogging, quite yet. Mostly due to some website changes I am having to figure out, and it's going to involve possible losing my old blog posts (and then having to repost each one over time, and it also means many of the links I, and others, have shared will be broken.)
Thank you to all of you who have given me kind, encouraging, comments and messages. My apologizes to anyone I have not responded to. I dearly want to, but have had to put my word priorities elsewhere.
To any new readers to my blog, I invite you to click on the link below to view one of my favorite blog posts that I have written, with one of my favorite visuals:
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My thought process.
I read an article today about an autistic female. It made me smile. She said things that I can really relate to and she gave a very interesting explanation of what it's like to be autistic.
"The best way to explain it so that other people can relate, is to put it in a frame of reference. It almost like a person who has diabetes, they have to manage their blood sugar levels. They however use insulin or diet to control their body. Think of autism as ebbing and flowing like blood sugar levels. Some days my autism is much stronger than others. I have to control the level of stimulation that is having an effect on my body and mind. The things that are stimulating can be anything."
I am not ready for April, Autism Awareness Month.
There is a lot of news out there regarding autism. Some I agree with and some I don't agree with.
It's just too much to take in.
Note: Sam Noble: Will you be my advocate for April? I need you to decode my thoughts and feelings and to use your great words and ability to communicate with others for me.
I am a huge fan of deep pressure and weight. Often times, I will carry around a solid copper ball by the name of Quincy.
I have had Quincy for a very long time. I love having weight in one, or both, of my hands. It meets a sensory need for me which I still don't quite understand. He (yes, I have assigned Quincy a gender) is also a great defense if I am walking home alone at night. You do not want to be on the other side of a punch with Quincy in my hand! Luckily, I have never had to use Quincy for that!
Yesterday, I FINALLY was able to make it to the gentle yoga class at the YMCA. I have been trying for over 5 weeks...going downtown, taking the elevator upstairs, getting used to the locker room, looking in the window at the yoga class...and then going home...again and again.
But I FINALLY did it! And, lol, they were randomly filming the class! So, at some point there will be a clip of me in a YMCA "video looping" thingy at their gym.
Ear protectors are a great tool.
I am glad I finally went to the yoga class esterday, but the rest of the day was a HUGE struggle. I almost screamed at several different groups of people in public, because they were making very unpleasant sounds!!
I also attracted a lot of attention to myself with my vocal stimming
I had to wear my ear protectors to keep myself under control.
Because I did something SO
big and new (at least it is for me!) I got a reward! A new sensory toy to carry around!
She's heavy, like Quincy, and very pleasing to carry around. I named her Anabelle, because she looks somewhat like me!
Also, I can hide tiny notes or written wishes inside of her!